I've been compiling this for like 20 days yo loll
Another year has gone by, and i think ive got some BETTER "confessions" this time around other than "LOL I LIKE CENTAURS." well i like Links and Siegfrieds and Kaminas and Minatos too but those aren't really like confessions lol (haaa kamina threw you off, the other three had blonde hair...and kamina has blue...which is my favorite colo-- LETS MOVE ON)
SO TO WARN YOU. This is my SENIOR YEAR 2010 CONFESSIONS. Its probably depressing. but its my DAMN BLOG lol.
-My biggest confession (I guess?). Within my four years of High school, I crushed on one person. However, I never admitted it to them, nor to anybody else. And not willing to still. lol. If you want a hint, Its not anybody in the Code Red Knights (past or present.)
-A little known Rock Band fact: When I'm thinking about certain people, I play the songs they like/play (esp when theyre not around.) I didn't Identify this quirk on my own tho.
-Why not go all out? Alot of the time, when you see me "tired/sleeping", I'm really pissed or upset but i don't want anybody to see. There is a difference between that and sleeping tho, i'll prolly letcha know I'm sleeping if I am.
- I hate feeling like a Douche. Or like I did something wrong to cause something. If anything was caused by me, I will immediately go to fix it, or attempt a sorry. It just feels shitty having ppl you care about think of you wrongly.
-Other people outside my peep circle? Say what they want. Doesnt matter who wants to rag on me. I'm a big kid, and words don't hurt me.
-On that note, as much as i say im a big kid, I cant do anything on my own. I can be mature when ppl are around me, I get calm and collected, and take care of busineessss. On my own? pfft. Scared as a damn mouse. College is gonna be hard T_T
-I'M AN OPEN BOOK. Hello! Writing this all on a blog? XD so that means that most of you guys do know me very well. More well than you think. I only have a few things I keep to myself, which im mostly addressing today. o__o I'm not sure if I'm leaving ANYTHING out.
-I lied XD I'm MOSTLY an open book. Talking to you guys in the CRK, if I feel you'll react harshly to what I'm gonna say, then I avoid the conversation. In turn, if you expect me to tell you everything, I expect the same from you. Its annoying when some people know everything about you, and you have no idea whats going on in their little heads.
-I regret not talking to some people, when you finally get to know them and you know, you part ways. That I think sucks. I is gonna miss you my apprentice.
-I like giving gifts. XD okay well now they're ALL WITH ULTERIOR MOTIVE (I'M IN YO ROOM PUTTIN MY DRAWINS THAR)
-Most of the time, I'm nice. I like doing things for others. However, I also think that it might be in an instant gratification sense. Not all the time, but I do sometimes do things and im like "yeah I'M the better person >D " even though being nice shouldn't come with a motive like that XD
-I'm very afraid of everyone leaving me. A bunch of people coming and going will do that to ya. So sometimes I cling and try to please those so they dont decide I'm worthless and go again.
-Kinda dislike when I use words and phrases that I deem normal (not difficult or anything), and everybody has no idea what I'm talking about. I wonder if this is because I'm white (or just wierd?)
I also think that most if not all beings are perfectionists. We WANT it all, but we cant have it all. we want what we cant have,
and take for granted what we have until its gone. However. The best people have perfectionism in them, but they can smile at what
they have for now, and want for the future. :\
~Laaa Kayton out
