REFLECTION~

So, I'm 'sposed to have a "best of" 09 Blog coming soon, but I stumbled upon this instead. I'd like to write it in here, so that I may reflect on it if i lose the sheet.
This was a Warm up for English in 8th grade (as denoted by the sora lion cub on the backside XD)
"Warm up.
If i had a box with anything inside of it, my family would decide that inside would be a house in the Katy area. I think my family would all agree easily on whats inside the box. we've been trying to sell our house for a year now, and no luck whatsoever. no one comes to look at it, no one wants to see it. my family can't get a new house in katy because we need the money from our old house to make the payments. If we got a house, then we could lower the older houses price, and people would by it. why does my family want to get out of alief you say? Well, my mother says that i can get a better education and my brother wont turn into a gangster. My dads reasons are unknown, but im sure as a parent that he has the same ideas mom has. my brother wants a house in a new neighborhood because he has no friends. the kids at petrosky ignore him and dont play with him. he is miserable, and maybe Katy, where the kids are a nicer, and more respectful (no offence) he could be happier. myself, my reasons are hard to come up with. all Pre-AP, lots of friends, going to kerr next year, im president of the art club, and im a student mentor, do you think i want to give all that up? no way. But, i dont like a stealers, beat em up neighborhood either. i would rather make new friends, call and talk to my old friends, get into different art classes, live in a nice new him in a nice new neighborhood, try to see if i cant be a student mentor, go to a highly rated school , (Katy Taylor Highschool) and go to a place where people don't steal handhelds. I think that my family would be better off with a new house in Katy, TX"
8th Grade, 06

Man. When I read this I was like. wow. Only now do I see Katy residents as snobs. lol. And to think about "calling and talking" to my old friends, man I can't live without you guys. JEEZ i cant even live without ashly and that wasnt of my own verdict. But I find it the most interesting, how I made most of my wishes now despite not living there. I've made new friends, got into several art classes (That have helped me push myself to be better.) Maybe the same neighborhood, but neighbors and a culdesac that ive bonded with, Gone to a pretty highly rated school (Kerr what!), and have surrounded myself with people who mostly, XD, dont betray me and take mah DSes. XD
How times have changed.
12th Grade , 10.

How do you do?

And what an uneventful yet eventful week it's been. I don't write often, actually this past week I didn't do ANYTHING cept 1 chibi and that makes me sad. I dunno, motiviation? Something like that. However despite my actual "how's life" ramblings being quite dull, I needed to write this because of certain things that don't happen while im awake. Or called, dreams. If you know me well, you can say that I have….strange dreams. Usually, theyre just plain weird. Things like my uncle riding a childs motorcycle in a culdesac and being like a chauffeur (XD I love that one), another where im playing Pictionary in the middle of MY culdesac and I the words I kept getting were horrible and not KIDSAFE (what an o///////o moment in that dream that was XD)

But no. As of this morning, I've had two, absolutely, FUCKING HORRIBLE, dreams. There was a third one today that wasn't horrible, somewhat amusing in a sense but whatever. This is strange because I normally don't have this many dreams in a row I remember, and they being so bad they affected my waking up & going through the day. School people! Noticed anything sort of off about me this week? Yeah I'm pretty good at hiding it. I really didn't know who or how to convey these…dreams to, so I'm using the blog instead.

Tuesday, I got home and decided to watch teen titans, upstairs yadda yadda, ended up laying on the floor trying to watch them and fell asleep. This was one of the horrible dreams. I can't exactly put them into words, and for this one it actually includes those who might read this blog so I won't get into specifics, but it felt very real, I mean the whole dream started up with me waking up from where I was and answering the door (ironically, how I woke up to this dream was getting up and answering the door, though in real life it was Steven I still had this OH GOD NO in my head). I answered the door, stuff happened, I was really happy, and all of a sudden, a realization hit me. Now again, due to it dealing with real ppl and situations I can't explain, I'll say that someone who should have been with these said people weren't. This, situation, was like a future alternative to my life down the road, and if I had to choose, I didn't want that way. So, while said people were in my house, I completely ended up changing my attitude, going to my room and shutting/locking (Even though theres not a lock) on my doors, sitting in the middle of my room NEXT to my bed and taking all my blankets and comforters and wrapping myself all in them. I was absolutely devastated, and in this dream it was so vivid that I never felt this feeling of anguish before. Confused, said people awkwardly the house, and then of course the real door bell rang.

This dream, of the three, pertains closest to my actual life. Because I had been thinking so much about things, they gave me a sort of situation to look at. And of course after analyzing it in real life, if that's how life would be down the line, I don't want it. Not. At. All.

Flashforward to LAST night, Thursday night while it was raining, I had another dream. One I hope to god doesn't come true in any way or fashion. I can spare people reading this a "censored" version because it doesn't pertain to any of you. Another pretty real dream to start with, my father and I were having bonding time. On a side note, I know you don't hear it from me much, I usually talk about my mom more, but I do love my dad very much. He's got this laid back sense of being I think I have myself in some ways, and we bond over little things. Anyway, we were up at miller (an intermediate school both Luke and I went to at some points) in the front of the school, both in his expedition, and I guess we were waiting on something, because the whole front was filled with cars. Now. This part comes from last year, when I had to pick up Luke several times at Miller due to his rehearsals for his play. People waiting on their children in that front, are absolute madmen in vehicles. Nobody waits in line, people try to pull out in front of one another, the parking lot is filled, the first curve around the schools front is filled, then the second space curve next to it (essentially you are boxed in if you're in the inner curve) and whomever cannot get in the front has to get in this line that goes all the way down the street the schools on. Madness at every turn, I sort of dreaded the going to get Luke because I hoped that someone didn't try to kill me. BACK TO THE DREAM, We were sort of in the outer curve, but on the street and not in the space where the school is, so dad sends me in to find Luke. At this point, take what I said in real life about this driving issue and like triple it. It was BAD BAD. I roam along happily, get distracted, trying to find Luke, tell him to get his butt back here and when I come back out of the school, I see some of these cars, again, it's a dream, in madness state and using other cars as RAMPS to JUMP over and get in the front of this school. So like those ramps in video games where you get in front of people, except real vehicles. So while I'm walking back out, and of course trying to avoid getting smashed, that back on the street is being absolutely Batshit, and I guess dad tried to get in a spot that Luke and I could hop into, so he does this sort of ramp thing with the cars, but he goes high in the air. The big ass expedition goes high in the air, comes down okay, but as I'm going toward the vehicle I hear my dad SCREAMING. Like. Bloody murder. It wasn't a yehaw sort of thing you could hear him doing in the air, he was SCREAMING. So of course I freak out, and I run over there and parts of the car are totaled and I pull him out of the vehicle, and he's fucking electrocuted. Something malfunctioned in the car when he hit the ground, zapped the whole inside of the car. I pull him out and his eyes are in the back of his head , I don't know what to do and so I'm screaming, screaming call 911 because that's all I can do, and I'm just, absolutely shocked (in that literary sense) My dad is DEAD. And of course at this time my dream fades off, and despite me only having gone to sleep at 1 in the morning, I woke up at 3 AM hearing the thunder.

This dream, again after analyzing it, seems to come from that miller thing, and the fact it was raining/thundering outside and that's how instead of the car blowing up like you think it would, he got electrocuted. This morning I didn't even know what to do with myself. I don't want this to be something forseen, either of these dreams, and I wish they would go away. I didn't really want to IM about it, and it was hard for me to like, explain it (I tried explaining the first dream to my mom but she didn't get it), so while I had hoped ashly would have been on long enough today for me to confine it in her, she was not and I really needed something tangible for me to put my thoughts into before I try to go to sleep again tonight.

There was a third dream, another one close my life that I had earlier today, but it ranged like other dreams I had, where I was happy, then depressed, then my depression turned into anger and I got to go throw shit around and that was amusing, and then there was a sense of comfort in the end. I think I woke up with not really a sense of OH GOD NO, but a "we had an auditorium at Kerr?" :< it was nice too XD

 

I don't expect any of you to pity me. We all have our own problems, however it just seems like as of this week, all my creativity and emotional thoughts became dreams and NOT DRAWINGS AUGLHDKLGF one chibi that's it this week *cries* you can comment on it. You can NOT comment on it. Do what you wish, I was just trying to make myself more calm.

~Kayton.

Posty truly is toasty

When you write one in the morning. Haven't written one in a while, i know i should :\ so hur i am.
I have no rant in me, its too hard to just sit down and rant when its...not 2 AM XD
So you'll get the bare basics from me today. I beat Dissidia this week, if i were to score it, an 9 out of ten, the good points were the customization, the amount of modes for heroes, many characters variable differences and long story mode. Bad points however were the fact that its annoying to level up villans when they have no modes themselves, and would take alot more time leveling up new characters. I played with Tidus, and hes 73 now and the only person closest is onion knight at level 30. The individual stories were interesting, but the main story was like "wut" the whole time, so bland and "omg im gonna kill you for CHAOOSSS." and chaos is a bitch. :[ It really is like an 8.5, but my biasedness for characters and what they say and the nice music+ending cutscene bumps it up.

Anyways, been living life, drawing, rock banding, sort of gaming, whenever I can't draw. i'd really like to play ffX or x-2 over, but then i still have to start days, mario and luigi bowsers inside story, finish scribblenauts T___T WHERES MAH TIEMMMM AUGHHHH

Its always my tiem isnt it. Even in real life i feel like I'm running out of time. Anyway, todays post has ended, crack it up, irrationalize, and comment.

Return to the land of dreams

And water and wings.

This is one of my favorite pictures from the OVAs :]

This week, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles ended its 232 chapter run with an epilogue. After almost four years of reading and watching it, I figured it needed a reflection of sorts to calm my own brain.

We can remember, even when I was on xanga I crazily freaked as a calm ian "wtf"ed at me and mal "lolled" my antics. To excerpt from a post November 2007:

"i HATE rsyaoran in the fact that he absolutely contradicted himself, and again todays chapter. When we learn that Syaoran is actually the clone, rsyaoran tells him that even if he was a clone he could still have a heart and make his own decisions, aka live his own life and that he would not be a puppet to fei wong. And here we are, 40 chapters later and rsyaoran is dealing with NOT his own business."

I obsess when I watch series, I think you can understand and get the best out of them when you do, but that is my own thing. We've had a lot of ups and downs, syaoran being a clone..clone sakura dying…clone syaoran dying, adult clone syaoran (~) and to the end where real syaoran will continue his journey to help the clone and his alternate self Watanuki escape from his own heart. The story, I believe, is not done. Hinted in the epilogue, syaoran might appear at the shop in xxxholic, so I'll keep my eyes peeled. I feel like this is one of my favorite series', I don't have a lot of them but when I do, they strike me vividly. I mean, all the nonsense about clones? They aren't real, and yet they could invoke hatred against the real thing despite the clone not being the original. AND THE EYE. Personally, Tokyo revelations was my favorite arc, nothing makes you go from sad to angry to shocked to upset and then hopeful all in around 30 minutes ALL FROM THE SAME CHARACTER. (clone syaoran blue eye blood stained cheek ftw. You heard nothing.) Many don't agree with me, stating that CLAMP has had much better ones. But when I hear that half of the protagonists are 12 crushing on their teachers or Worse, im pretty satisfied with CLAMP.

I feel that they really lost themselves in the middle and towards the end however. In the beginning, it was stressed that syaoran would have to make a new bond with sakura, both clones at the moment in time, and as it went by, that part of life was lost in a flurry to keep up with which sakura was who and what syaoran liked what. The feathers, even at the end, seemed lost. Fei wong always wanted to use sakuras body for to cross dimensions, to give yuuko a body? So in terms of storyline, I think most English teachers (and not real professors) would proclaim that it didn't make sense and was filled with plotholes.

So why was it so good? Tis strange. I guess the wtfuckery factor it brings to the table that really got me, week to week I couldn't help myself by being like YES SCREW YOU RSYAORAN, or OMG WTF HAPPENED *wikis*, or THAT WAS IT?!1?!?!?!?! (last ch before epilogue )

I think. It was the characters. For someone not exactly rolling in cardcaptor sakura history, I managed to love both syaoran and sakura as if I had known of their relationship before. Fai and Kurogane as well, though not as prominent as time went on, really were some fun, but crazy characters. Fai has his own little fan club in the back of my brain, and kuro has awesome written on a sticky note dwelling in my head too. Adult syaoran was – err nevermind. I'm happy to have started something, read it in full each week and experienced it, and then got to feel fuller by watching it. It was one of the first, in fact, like that, with only maybe one or two I started without knowing plot or characters, or, like naruto, jumping around.

So I leave this post with this. "Stagnant time is the same as death." Go forward, and don't waste your life away. Don't stand still, or you'll be left behind. *holds up sword* AND REMEMBER YOUR SOLIDER HONOR DAMMIT!

~Kayton-taaan

Take it to the sky; never comin back

Maybe sometime in the next century ill make a title that makes sense. Before I spend this weekend reading and dealing with Grendel; I thought I would start by giving another updattebayo of my week.

First things first; I made some sweet shirts early in the week, and have decided to spread that and do shirts for others. So up on my AIM info are instructions, and that's that. I've only got one of the three slots filled but I'm hoping to advertise a bit better so. Art was okay this week, I finished that dastardly shoescape, and the inspiral nation redux picture probably wont be done in time for the tues due date unless a miracle erupts; like, I read grendel at a blinding pace. Kate + books = no. so probably not. English is getting back to normal, I'm really on a half acquaintance thing with the people in my class, but I guess my shyness came off pretty fast, and now im back to being retarded, so I guess that's good. Lunch is…lunch. IF NOT FOR MY ALONENESS AT LUNCH THE MELONXAPPLE PAIRING WOULD NOT EXIST XDD. Smoothie ftw.

I'd like to, for myself, work on some sort of idea each week, like a central something im not too great at everyweekend, and get better at it. I tried fitting this marathoning thing into my HCC time but that didn't work. So for example ( from my planner that I need a new one of) "finish request week" , "30 poses week" (draw out 30 dynamic/different poses), "anime bonanza week" (I guess that means draw random anime characters? Eh)

Other ones I'd like to do is like straight cartoon characters (bugs, popeye, that sort of stuff), MAYBE a still life item week, faces week, ZACK WEEK……? XD for like the nomura style I mean; maybe an okami style week. That sort of thing. I thought about doing one picture a day like many marathons do but you know how 5 days come and go and the 6^th day is doing all 5 days work. So :\

I've been working on pea pod, added a new pod, strawberries pod, who include females Strawberry and Melon, aaand….whomever exit is going to do a boy. Melon was done by ashly! I did strawberry! Apple has an infatuation with melon! Err… XD

APPLEMELON SMOOTHIE.

~Professor Kayton

-from Hershel Layton Professor school-

This. Is. YOGURRRTTTT!!!

Om nom.

In an attempt to get mal to write a blog, I am writing one ! yay!

Last week was the first days of school. I'm pleased with my classes because really its just shit I do every day (art art English; so drawing and writing :] ) I am somewhat frustrated with not having lunch with people; this happened last year and gives me far too much time to think, hell, I even READ BOOKS D: And drawing won't do me any good, I already do that for about 3 hours a day. So I think I'm gonna see if I can find some interesting books. Maybe I'll read pendragon again or try lightning thief. I get off pretty early; so I'm hoping to do running at the park; the one mom showed me is AWESOMETASTIC OMG I punch myself for waiting this long and not going all the times they went. Hopefully this Lax year will give me ideas, but sometimes I need difficulties to thrive.

Next up, I got dissidia this week yay! I am making this part (hopefully) transparent as to not spoil mal.

Dissidias gameplay is very different than what many of us experience. To put it into words, its like Smash bros brawl + Soulcalibur with bits of fire emblem, final fantasy (of course) and sonic thrown in. tiem to justify all that. Smash bros uses different A and B attacks depending on which direction; and is the same with Dissidia, but one letter is attacks that give you bravery(or how much you can attack) and the other HP (or how much damage you take off.) To harm the enemy more, one must have more bravery, if its at 0 (reset after every contacting hit), then someone can break you, and get a major boost of bravery, and lead to a higher attack. For something that has you sort of smash square and circle, fighting those stronger than you becomes a difficult task of seizing the moment. It is a lot like Soulcalibur based off its epicness, how they must gain a crystal for cosmos or chaos; and the narrators all soulcaliburness "TALES OF SWORDS AND SOULS, ETERNALLY RETOLLD." XD oh and some of the menu music is like it as well. The map system is a board, you move and you lose a point and bigger bonuses, and obstacles stand in your way; so the fire emblemness is knowing who to fight (usually for treasure or experience) and to do it swiftly. FINAL FANTASY IS AN OBVIOUS POINT. D: cant get more cloud than "what are we fighting forrr" and tidus "daaaaaddd I HATE YOU." And lastly. Its like sonic in that you sort of take care of chaos, but really you win battles and this chocobo, based on your performance, gets you treasure and heightened exp bases. My favorite part I think is the calendar system, I don't know if tehres anything like it. You are asked which day is your favorite to play, and on that day your given bonuses like 2X exp and such. Rewarding for your favorite day is so cool : D So far I've played out Tidus, Zidane, Cloud, Squall, and most of Cecil; and I have to say I still like tidus, zidanes sort of annoying, cecil is very hit and miss much like squall, but squalls WAY more powerful D: and cloud is…default.

 

So that's pretty much it. Maybe one day I'll do a post about some random files I found on my monsters; its exceptional writing for me :]

YIPPIE KIYAY MOTHER*******!

Despite the clearly misleading title, this is a time capsule post. Yeah i don't believe either! Its not gonna include me hating people! That's great! Allright where do we start.

Going into the last year of regular schooling, I wanted to reflect on things that made me me. No, not people today. Well. Not real people anyhow. The wonderful world of fiction that I don't believe many children have these days. Bet you thought I was gonna start with DBZ DIDNTCHA?! Well, it was gonna be; till I watched something today that made me very happy and I thought I should talk about it a bit first. The shows that I watched after my morning kindergarden :D Blues Clues!!! I had forgotten how much I adored that, and to think, KINDERGARDEN! Its been 12 years! I don't know if drawing was what I thought about all the time like I do now, but maybe hints like me asking how steve was so darn good with his crayon and I wasn't probably meant I was interested at least. Most shows back then were my time. Its ironic. I always see "childhood" reflection arts on like…he-man. I don't even know what channel that was on? No way man. Tom and Jerry, Bugs Bunny, Blues Clues :D I watch stuff with Stevie now, and as much as I li—no I don't really like it. That's not to say he shouldn't like it, I just wish there were more enthralling early learning shows than the stuff currently. I mean jeez im old like crap and im yelling at steve "TWO BLUE DOLLARSSSS."

I only recently have been seeing steven doing what I thought he would have a long time ago; reacting, really reacting, to whats on the screen. Jeez the girls cant ask me enough questions (no holley I DON'T KNOW that much about Anastasia but I'll try! ) and steven, well he's always been stolic. Even in pokemon, he saw them, knew their names, but it was like a o____ *watches* and doesn't really get it. Lately though, ive been giving him more Disney and Sandys been working with him, definitely paying off. Why the other day he learned about croquet from his grandmother, and I had him come over to watch A Bug's Life, and in the opening shot you see the zoomed in look of all the tall blades of grass; to which Stevie promptly replies "oh wow I wouldn't want to play croquet in THAT grass!" (to which I LOLED my butt off and tried to not let him see how awesomely cute and observant of him that was) I just wish there were better computer games than they have now for kids. What do small PC gamers play? I played jumpstart….does this gen play the sims?

YEAH NOW ITS TIEM FOR THE DBZ. Despite my constant roaring of pokemon, I'm probably as much if not more into dbz than pkmn. The difference is dbz is over. Dragon ball Z happened to me in early first onto second grade. It was my first real Toonami show, one even my mom and I watched together; she knew Goku and Gohan just as I. However, the major Pokemon thing hit in second grade, and popularity pushed dbz out of the limelight. It was all about pikachus. Not to say I didn't watch it of course, there was just two different crowds back then, the group I'd learn with, and the group I played with. Schooltime you told everybody your favorite Pokemon and drew and traced in the how to books, at 4:30 during daycare you glued yourself to dbz watching trunks beat the crap outta frieza. I have fond memories of both, but sometimes I wonder which actually got me into drawing; it might've been both :\ In second grade I got a series of comic books, you might of heard of them; the electric tale of Pikachu. :D on the back covers though they had advertisements for the Dragonball manga. Guess what I did? Yup. I copied pictures in and out of those books. I still have the paper where I did my first real kid goku. Dunno where the comic books went though; that makes me somewhat sad. You know what that means of course? Its been about 10 years since I drew that picture; so I drew up some dbz stuff the other day to compare. Its……different. XD why wouldn't it not be. It proves how much ive grown in some ways; and how much I haven't.

That whole series was somewhat of a growing up thing. Dbz was a BOY show. I was sposed to watch sailor moon. But…my notions of anything (we shall call it shoujo; I call it phobia of anything romantic) shoujo just didn't let it happen. My way of proving myself was to draw better than the guys. Watching dragonball in itself, behind the things that went around it; made me probably a little like how I am now. Gohan (before he fought cell, it put him at like 12 or 13…which happened to be my age at the time) was always my favorite character; the first character that really stood out as a calm but powerful rationalist as he grew; we all love our narutos and ichigos and EDWARDS (not cullens >.> ), but sometimes we forget about people like Alphonse and Gohan. I myself always wanted to be as strong and yet levelheaded as they were; I built characters with that sort of mentality; IF you've known me long enough, long before a Kayton or a Xetak there was a Kale. Kale was the weirdest in all my entities as I never drew him in the image of me. The physical form of "kale" was actually just me with ONE of my sleeves pushed up and the other one left down. To me now, that was a little silly; but in some ways it was my figurative super saiyan form, one that I believed was really better than me and could do so much more (in paper drawing terms kale became a character I draw ever so often, in lots of different entities, but theyre just usually me. How mary sue. )

When I look back, see all these problems people are having now, I see that my earlier times were so easy compared to parental issues of others. The scariest part of my life has been hoping mom didn't throw diet coke at the wall in fury, or meet an ADHD kid. GOD its like those people are out to get me. The only two I ever met were at my daycare, and I had horrible experiences with both kids. Now people are trying to deal with selfish brothers, job aspire-ments, and fathers. :\ Always remember tho. To be super saiyan; one must train to be the best they can be, or choose the easier and less favorable route, death. Take what life has to offer and fight to win, or your weakness will end in tragedy. Both roads get you there, but the tragic road is never the one to take.

…oh and its filled with steroids. :D

-Kayton-saan.

Deserves its own post.

I found this the other day. its not very nice.
I think it had to do with so many people asking me to do original stuff, and mom said something like that too. Its a hard blow when even your mom isnt behind you, as all of you might know depending on your lifestyles. but my mom is usually a "well im for it but dont screw up" sort of person. I remember coming over to the computer angry, and just started typing. Its VERY rantful. And if it offends you? I don't care :| Because ive read it over 3-4 times now and it says exactly how I want to say it.
6/17/09
">:[ fucking original from me. nothing in this STUPID world is original.
why are my ideas any different. thats right, because i already found this factor out in SEVENTH FKING GRADE.WHEN MY GREAT
IDEA OF A MAN WITH METAL LIMBS WAS TAKEN FROM ME. FMA? hah.
i cant do original because it doesnt exist. so what if its cartoony.
cartoons are the basis of a childhood, and if there arent good cartoons, such as the crap we have now, what do you
think will happen to kids? you say anime is stupid. and least pokemon has the basis of a good cartoon. learning, but
its not in front of ones eyes, and isnt shoved into ones face. fighting? internally or externally its bound to happen.
I shouldnt have to be limited on whats in front of me. or the racial or ideas that must be created for one to MAKE a good
realistic piece. realism is there, and is in video games. but the IDEAS have to be fantastical for the realism
and the surrealism to mesh.
what is there and whats not there is what makes games so compelling
Live in your world, play in theirs.
save the world
kill your father
destroy what doesnt need to be.
prove your existence.
and like the heroes of games to come, proving your existence as a person is what relates you to the hero.
to draw is like that.
to draw what you want is to prove your existence
i guess that since everyone else does realism and no fanart it means that im clearly just not a good artist as they copped
out of something so, immature, years ago.
but you know what i think?
i think theyre afraid.
afraid to love what they do.
afraid it will make them lesser than what they are.
to be embarrassed that i like hannah montana and pokemon at 17? pish posh. i know it, my friends know it, and they
arent any less friends to me than ones who wouldnt know it.
if other people want to base their judgements on my hobbies and not my personality, let them. they arent my friends.
what would the world be like without disney?
without those to show us how to be when a father dies?
without those to show us what to do when they are separated from all they know.
how to become stronger when everyone else thinks lowly of you.
these things are REAL LIFE. and they can be conveyed through cartoons.
cartoons?
no.
Art."

*goes to sleep*

Not always about what we “see.”

I've always been against mute characters. I hate the "!" *turns around* *guy starts talking about life* sort of thing. Dark clouds Toan does that, and that's what I'm playing so bleh. but on the same level, Nintendo likes to contradict that whole ordeal of dialogue in gaming. When I played twilight princess, I rmred being furious that link wouldn't talk; remembering this article I'm reading right now that Nintendo wants you to be immersed in the characters and you think about their decisions. What if you didn't want to save Timmy from the boar monster? you're not GIVEN that choice, it's not a "choose the good or evil side" thing other games have, you're the hero, and in turn you do heroic things. no matter how trivial. Thats why I love playing ff7, Cloud didn't go "a dress? I guess for the HEROIC DEEDS OF TOMORROW! I SHALL WEAR THIS DRESS! YOUTHH". no XD he went "wtf. no." and Aerith goes "um UHUH do it or I won't be your girlfriend." "your not my girlfri- *shoves dress on him* ....." XD

As cloud, the dude whom we know has a good heart and would be just as heroic as Link, he adds the sarcasm and, yknow, a personality of his own to deal with.

Some people think that we JUST COULDNT LISTEN TO LINK TALK OMG NO RMR THEM CDI DAYS. And because people are narrow minded, Nintendo feeds off this. you do realize that makes it easier for them to produce games is without dialogue right? ahur hur voice actors cost monay. why do you think they have so much of it? As a firm dub believer, I think that they could do it dammit. And I think this is a horrible reason not to. Tidus, whom is voice by Jonathan blah blah Taylor, voice actor of ratchet as well, I never had a problem with until I had heard from others he was whiny. but even if he was "whiny", his travels with Yuna made for a great story. without dialogue, I think people would have seen Tidus I guess as the great hero, when in fact he only grew as a person into the hero that most protagonists are.

Not to say I haven't had my share of non-talking fun. Many of Nintendo's games include zero dialogue, where other games, such as dragon quest 8, really have a "mute protagonist." this, isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Hero allies himself with very chattery people who all interact in interesting ways, where he ends up not being seen as you, but more as a kid who likes seeing his friends strike up conversations. he's there, somewhat as you, but also as hero. I think it's a nice mix.

If I was "link" in playing twilight princess, for the life of me I don't remember what Midna said that one time, my first interaction with Zelda, no, my nostalgia of playing it goes to how hella difficult parts of the dungeons are, or your first time using a new weapon. Is that how I'm supposed to be remembering a plot-heavy ridden story? it is an RPG, after all, I can't remember for shit what happened in the plains of ff10.

A great example of the mute turned dialogue ridden is the Jak and Daxter series. Jak, in the first one, was good friends with Daxter as we can see, proclaimed the hero and rolled with it. But as his life took for a much darker turn in Jak 2, he indulged himself in not saving haven city; but defeating the baron Praxis for the dark eco he pumped into Jak. Only dialogue could give you this sense that he changed, I mean you can make as many D:< faces as you want, but nothing stands out like " Jak? you ok? for once in your life saaay somethinnnngg aaAHH" "IM GONNA KILL BARON PRAXIS!" and see he's not the goody too shoes hero he once was. But as he moves toward the end of the game, Jak begins to cherish his friends and protect them from the metal heads. into 3 he once again grew, thinking his friends had abandoned him as one of the chancellors of haven city threw him out of the city, but eventually protects his new home as the hero he was as a child. pretty touching eh?

Either way, I think what matters is good storytelling. Level 5, the group that made dark cloud that I'm currently playing, came to grow as a developer, making DC in 2000, dragon quest 8 in '04, rogue galaxy in '06 (another rpg on my list), and even came to create the professor kayton montage with their line of Professor Layton games in 07; now working with studio Ghibli to combine their storytelling with Miyazaki's artistic form of such. Shows how much they can grow, like many talking, and mute, protagonists. :D

Lastly, your opinion please? What do you consider to be an ideal workings of your main character and universe. Should they talk, or should their words be in your mind?

Hello Dream Killer. What? THERES AN APP FOR THAT??

I know. Everything is a rant. Never a nostalgia post, never a time capsule post, hell not even a how was your day post XD I fail.

But I said I was gonna do this and I am.

Stop here if you don't want a horrific iphone infested rant.

 

Good? Now we can begin.

I hate the iphone.

OHNORLY. Just want to clarify why. No, its not the normal reasons not the ones the commercials do with the smart phones "your just jealous because you don't have one." Oh of course I'm jealous. EVERY PHONE IS BETTER THAN MY PHONE, but on the zune side of things or yknow.. because iphone is better than books, the BOOK side of things, I'm doing just fine. I dislike that of the gaming portion of the iphone.

And no, it's not the "it's just because you don't get to play them" thing either. I DON'T PLAY ANYTHING AT THE STUPID MOMENT.

And the iphone is why.

If you didn't know, anyone with a iphone dev kit can create "apps" for said iphone. Of course I think this means you have to have a mac, but besides that, ANYONE can make something, and sell it on the iphone. The genuine problem with this is that ANYONE MEANING EVERYONE, CANNOT CREATE. In the world, as told by our wonderful philosophical books such as The Giver, or 1984, an idealistic world is where our occupation and destiny is controlled by another. But in the same fashion, if given everyone the chance to do what they wanted, well we'd have a lot more "fun" jobs being taken, a lot more unemployment, and no people doing shit jobs. Essentially, even though you can choose your job, there is no regulation in the system and you would have about as much a chance to do the "fun" job as you would in a controlled world.

    With the iphones development kits being pretty easy to obtain, more people are making apps. But there will always be the "P.O.S." app, sold for 99 cents. That's just a buck right? If its crap delete it right?

STANDARDS.ARE.LOWERED.

Just like in society as of right now, which is a whole 'nother bag of worms I'm not ready to write about.

Did you know as per Wikipedia, Yoshi's island, a Nintendo 64 game that came out in America in 1998, retailed at 59.99, Which is the current price of a top of the line Sony Playstation 3 or Xbox 360 game. In terms of how money was compared to what it was 10 years ago, we can say that was a pretty darn higher amount of money (though I don't know for how long), and people were willing to pay this for a game with minimal to low 3d graphical capabilities. Now I'm not going to say that games are BETTER now than they were, because believe me a part of me believes this to be a big fat lie; but for a game (lets compare call of duty 4 to N64s super smash brothers), for around the same price Call of duty has top of the line graphical capabilities, online play, trophies or achievements, some would say that the better multiplayer game would in fact be call of duty.

The point is, people were willing to pay for games that were top of the line OF THAT GENERATION. That smash bros brought together Nintendo characters like it had never had before, created almost another genre, that the game was loads of fun, and still is by the way, and people loved it. So 60 dollars justified the means. For a gamer like my brother, COD4 for 60 dollars the way he plays it is a steal. To justify my money though, hell no would I spend 60 dollars on a shooter where one, I don't like playing online, and two IM BAD AT. Justifying money seems to be the ordeal I'm mad at.

    My uncle, el dorko extrordinare, happened to be the ultimate gamer of the time, shelled out A HELLA a lot of money for a Sega Saturn that failed, bought ps1 first day, bought a psp very early, blah blah blah. This was all before he had children of course. And now, all he owns in his house is a Wii and is iphone. For a 37? Year old, with two small girls and one baby, a handheld is what he can deal with. With a million dollar baby ford that came last year, cheap games are all he can afford. Therefore, the iphone is his ideal. And I have no problem with that. Hes got a wii for when a star (lol) like Mario galaxy comes along, and hes full well and ready to put the money out for the next one. But he is exactly what people are becoming. Idiots.

Now I'm not saying iphone owners are idiots, no no no, Its that what he looks for in his device is everything. And I guess this is what we all want, the times of APUSH teach us if something or someone can do more, if Macys can offer MAIL in catalogs before others, they make the money. DO MORE. And others do less. He does less to do what he wants. What? I want to go to look up GPS directions? Ive got an app for that. Fine. What? I need to know the TIME WHY DON'T I LOOK AT MY IPHONES CLOCK OHOHOHOHO *your wearing a watch* >.>

Besides this, because im ranting. I'll get to the point. That which those who want to do less, those who want the easy road in things, will get crap. Like jobs, fail out of high school because you wanted to do less, you're a janitor. Whatever. And so that which ye wanted to do less, you got less. You get crap. Crap made by the people, and I guess FOR the people. The iphone, because regulation does not exist in the "crap" category, can make bad games and sell it for a buck. But what happens you say? Why does that matter to the smart consumer?

    Lol didn't I call my uncle a dorko? SMART CONSUMER? If everyone was a smart consumer there would never be any deals. Because of this, these 99 cent P.O.S games start JUSTFYING THE MONEY. They say "well we could get Rolando 2, a game critically acclaimed by even the people who make games for ten bucks, which is far less than its sort of clone loco roco 2 which came out first on the psp. OR I can buy ten games for a buck each.

    Well good job dorko. You just bought 10 crappy games instead of one good one. Now, what about those good ones for a dollar? Because people make good games for a dollar, they'd rather take the dollar one than the 10 dollar one. And buy…9 other shitty games for the same price yay. Blah blah mix and match it you'll get the same idea. If a good game is for a buck, and another good game is for 10 bucks, which are ya gonna buy? Yep.

Suddenly, Patapon 2 for the psp for 20 bucks isn't looking so satisfying. Suddenly, ANY ps3 or 360 game doesn't look so appetizing. And suddenly, people are willing to spend "less" to buy more.

    In our current society its everywhere. Spend less buy more. Go to walmart, get more than you would at Target or Kroger. It's a casual way of thinking. Yknow, casual like the WII? See where I'm going with this follow me follow~

    The casual gamer in us (yes, in all of us.) comes out. And suddenly, people make smaller, less overall enthralling games for a buck that appeals to a casual crowd, or ALL of the market of the iphoners, compared to the PSP install base. And all of them pick up that game for a buck……million dollars. And that SUCKS. Well. Not for them. And I guess not for the casual customer.

So why am I so mad?

I am a gamer. And. I want to make games. So as a gamer, a dollar for a GREAT game, is a great price. As a future video game designer? I'M OUT OF A JOB.

My ideas, they're not, 3 hour 1 dollar ideas. They're not Mario clones with a twist; they're their own thing. Project natas? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

Its hard making GOOD GAMES. Look at square….3 or 4 years ago XD those cutscenes were made by people very good at their job. For 10, for kh, some scenario writer worked his butt off. The graphic artists who made the renders worked day in and day out to make sure that nose was correct. They PERFECT IT. And then they sell it. At a modest 60 dollars. To a developer, that, is a justifying means of money for what they have created. And really now, if you think about it makes sense. I sold one picture for 20 dollars. How many screenshots can we take of a game? Yknow .000005 cents for a game with like 1000 plus screenshots, that's worth about 60 bucks. And the gameplay. And the online that many games include now; and the time. Now. Its hard because I'm, not very made of money. Sometimes, its very hard to be an artist, and a gamer. and a kid. To want to go to the mall? Gas. To draw a picture? Markers. To buy a sixty dollar game that sometimes means I might not get to play it, may lose interest and even tho it's a great game I exactly haven't gotten my play out of it? Suddenly doesn't seem too feasible. Even time isn't on my side. And its hard. What do I do? Be the gamer in me? Or try to make the games. And now. Its harder than ever.

    If I spent all that time, all the time square does on a final fantasy, okay, maybe a little less than that XD, and I put it out on the market that's becoming, it wont sell. 60 bucks? Hell no we can buy 60 one dollar iphone games. Even though my game is probably better than, say forty of those combined (Which if you buy enough ports you might get sonic Disney rock band singing in Japanese and I just cant compare to that), the market wants to play, what they think is more bang for their buck. And that would kill the industry. And that would kill my dreams. No Tovuja. No Natas. And maybe no start to a pea pod that hasn't even begun yet.

All because of the iphone.

 

Disagree? Fight me. El Dorko extrodinare fights me. I might not've won yet, but neither has he. And that means something.

See yas. Next time it'll be time capsule or something.

~Kayton

Because I really really, really, really, don’t want to do eco.

I WAS GONNA WRITE THIS BEFORE THEY SCREWED ME OVER. I SWEAR. (teacher decided even though finals are scheduled to be the tues/wed of next week, its tomorrow. Lets all cry)

This is a follow-up to my previous post. I feel inclined to do this, even if none of you have ANY CLUE what I wrote about before, and now.

>.> i tried looking images up but I don't know how to embedd well on here. every main character i say has an image on wikipedia tho so if you want.

I started rewatching the dubbed version on june 23^rd, and finished June 30^th. This is the fastest I've EVER I think run through a 50 episode series, well, XD I skipped the ending and the openings a lot and two recap episodes but besides that. The original reason I chose to re-watch is was because I could not recall the ending to it. My original run was on Toonami during 2004-2005, and according to Wikipedia, the show was edited to be Y-7. D: I can NOT believe that. There is so much…to..This…story that that's like, insane. Nevertheless. I remembered one point I made to everyone condemning the show, saying ew Kira, the main character, and another character, Cagalli, had a relationship and then turned out to be brother and sister, and this was how I remembered it into my mind as it being something stupid. I realize now, that this was not the reason.

The ending to this silly little story, as it seems, was not as CLIMACTIC in my mind as them being brother and sister. I may have in fact finished the series, but could not for my life remember the end. Normally, I finish every series I start, even when I don't start from the beginning. This is all true excluding Bleach. Any other time I made an attempt at watching it all. (Naruto is also a big exception, one cannot hope to really want to watch all those fillers, only to find that Shippuden had more fillers.) Nevertheless, I was slightly disappointed. I told myself that an end should not justify disappointment, but in this case it does.

With Dragonball Z, Goku left leaving his legacy behind, but not only that, he left because the world did not need his protection. One of the most interesting facts is how Goku caused more than half of the series enemies to strike earth. Frieza might not've sent Vegeta and Nappa to earth if it wasn't for Raditz's losing to Goku. The Androids as well as Cell were created to out-do Goku and the Z-fighters, if Goku hadn't thwarted the older androids with his exceptional abilities, then Cell would never have been as strong as he was. The only real character was Buu, but in any case these ideas can be found as qualified, in that saying if Goku HADNT been there, then the androids would have taken over, or pilaf would have found the Dragonballs and ruled the world (which we later learn, he wouldn't be very good at anyway.) In any case my rambling comes to the point that Goku leaving signified a peaceful world he left, whether by saving it from his hands or KEEPING HIMSELF AWAY.

Another example can be the end of Kingdom Hearts one. Sora had fulfilled his duties but was left to do other things, things that could make a sequel or leave it up to the gamer to merely speculate what he'd do next.

My main issue in the story of Gundam seed was the end. The very, as captian buggy would say, unflashy, end. I would like to say I expected something miraculous to happen. This is anime after all! Kill the best friend your hair becomes yellow!..fight your best friend and your eyes become blood red with kyuubi fury. Kira was expressed very late into the series as the first of all coordinators, or genetically altered beings, to be the first fully developed not in the womb of a woman. This made him different. Unique. Sure, he had this SEED mode, which is like super duper evolu—I don't remember what it stands for, he gains a better ability to sync with his Gundam to fight. But, this SEED ability was also found in his best friend AND his sister, who wasn't genetically altered like he was. What made his character MORE important, and to stand out more, than say his best friend Athrun, who also was altered, also strived for peace, and really in the end peacefully stopped the war? This is a question I do not know the answer to. But let me back up a bit.

In this story there was the fighting between coordinators, genetically altered beings whom technically have more physical prowess than their Natural, or regular human counter parts. These two sides fight for their beliefs, and eventually the watcher is made to believe that only Kira and his companions are right in choosing the neutral but ENDING the war peacefully position. In real life this does not exist. You may spout these words of wisdom, that hate leads to killing that guy where his brother will come kill you in that the hate your sibling feels avenges you and so on, but it isn't something that can be stopped. Kira states somewhere that people don't have to fight. This ideal logy for a story that DIDN'T END MIRACULOUSLY is unrealistic. No bright light or Gundam talking to him, telling him what to do. No super coordinator ability that set him apart from even his regular genetic counterparts. No. just. They blow up the nuclear weapon by blowing up the Gundam that's powered by nuclear energy. Really.

So one has to ask, why was Kira there. Basically, he was there to provide character drama between Flay Allister, a neutral citizen whose father dies because Kira couldn't save him, Cagalli Altha, his sister who is the daughter of the lord of the neutral nation WHOSE FATHER DIED, and Lacus Clyne, the daughter of the former coordinator lord of the ZAFT federation (again. Coordinator land). I Stated this to Cheeto, but the watcher is made to feel certain ways about the character while one moves forth in the series. Contact is made, a lot. In Naruto, Shippers jump for joy when our pair HUGS. In this, I'm so damn confused why everyone is hugging and crying and AUGH. Flay, his "first" girlfriend, originally wanted to manipulate him as she HATED coordinators and blamed him for her fathers death. You're made to HATE her. You don't think Kira deserves this. And so we turn to Cagalli, who comes in about 15 episodes in, and becomes "friends" with Kira. In between that, he met Lacus for a brief time, nothing too important for now. As a person who HATES Flay who do you think I want to vouch for? Of course his sister. Well, before we knew she was his sister. So he cries. A lot. And cries in like everyones laps. A lot. And I leave it there because Kira seems to figure out her plan and dumps her. Then um, Kira dies.

No not really. He dies and ends up IN THE COORDINATOR DWELLINGS. *points to earth* where they were *space* where he ended up. I wont say a word. Cagalli meets his best friend Athrun on occasion, and considers him a "friend." Thinking hes the only one she has left, she hands him this pendant thing cough plot device whatever. Essentially this is where I'm lost. IF Kira was alive, would she have been less on "Friend" terms with Athrun? (Athrun was on the other side btw. Bad guy. But not really.) Kira ends up in the cCyne faction. Yes. Lacus Clyne. You see, Lacus is Athruns fiancé. But Lacus is "fond of that boy [Kira]". Lacus is weird. For a pink haired wonder she's the most capable of the three girls in the series, yet she's not my favorite. Normally I'm all over the "strong girl", but Cagalli fits it in that she doesn't have super coordinator abilities, and she's bullheaded and tries her hardest even when she doesn't have the strength, Whereas Lacus does have friends in high places, and this gives her an advantage. So Cagalli is deemed more admirable to me. Anyway since the damn anime people decided to let flay have as many talks to herself, the watcher is at a loss of how these four main characters actually feel about one another. Athrun seems mad when he learns that Lacus defected the coordinator land ZAFT for her own faction that spouts peace, we know this, but then we wonder if Athrun was a bit jealous that Kira had some sort of relationship with his fiancé, even if it was arranged marriage. Athrun as a military solider doesn't show much love toward Lacus, though even she doesn't show too much when they were both "together." So I could see how they weren't too mad when they ended up with other people.

Kira confuses me just as much. It seemed like he liked cagalli, and the same went for her (twice he asked her "you're a girl?!" every time she wore dress clothes where she would blush and go "OF COURSE STUPID" and then "oh I was just making sure ;] " ) so you can see I'm confused on did he really like her. She comforted him when he screwed up, and in turn he comforted her when her dad died, and bitchslapping back and forth you know XD It was fun. What I think happened was that star wars moment, the OMG your dating your sister dude, and the animators go OH CRAP. Basically, Cagalli is handed a photo of her real mother before her adopted father dies, where he tells her "its going to be ok. Your going to be with your brother", and she turns the photo to find both her name and Kiras written on the back of it. She doesn't know how to react to this, but the watcher for some damn reason isn't told why. Does she wonder what this means about their real parents? Having one coordinator son and one natural human daughter is quite mysterious. OR. Does she wonder how this affects them as "friends". Or whatever you want to call them. This plot. Is thrown.out.thewindow. and it makes me sad. Due to this being the revelation at like episode 38, they have to solve the war by 50 and it leaves this complex triangle or square or whatever + flay in limbo. Basically they go "oh well lacus likes Kira, and Athrun WE THINK likes Cagalli so its ok." But its not ok, Wheres the drama, what happened here? Nope, because the things they were neglecting before, the battles, now come nonstop.

TO ADD ONTO THIS. Kira near the end learns of his fully genetic body, y'know the whole womb was a machine thing…..but why? It didn't progress the issue of he and Cagallis parents any more than what we knew on the back of that damn photo, and wasted precious time throwing that in. then finding out that Rau la Cruset, sp fail thank you, the man piloting the main rival ship against the ship they were on the whole time, is the first genetic clone of the father of one of the (not) main character, but an important secondary character. Why was this important? Because of this motto. Gundam Seed characters are all dynamic…ally fucked up. Mr clone is crazy. Remind you of mewtwo? Hell yes. He wants to take the whole universe with him as hes defective and ages rapidly to the point of deterioration. But how to do that? Why, let both sides know that the other side has nuclear weapons they're not afraid of using. Pfft whose gonna tell them that.?

Flay does.

Indirectly.

Hah thought I forgot about her? Nope. In the latter half of the series, after Kira dumps her, she's sent to another ship But ends up being taken captive by this Rau la Cruset clone man thing. She ends up on a ship full of those she thought were scum, that's right, the genetically altered coordinator's ship. And she realizes how SCREWED UP she thought. How they're like people, how much Rau is like her father (many times she flashbacked saying that they were very alike despite one being a coordinator and another being a human natural). In all shes stuck on a ship thinking that kiras dead and cant apologize to him. For 20 some odd episodes. Suddenly, her mouth is reduced to wherever her eyes wander on that ship. The watcher must infer how shes feeling, and I think this Is the only time that the silent use of emotion WORKED, for I don't believe the other mini plots like the sister/brother thing and the love square worked. Rau, remember she sort of sees him as a father figure, tells her the only way to end this war quickly is to have this key, one she would deliver to the earth alliance/natural humans through "captive release". The key, being a data disc, is retrieved by someone WHO MIGHT BE WORSE THAN FLAY WAS. Leader of the blue cosmos, a faction wanting the annihilation to all abominations known as coordinators, learns that several Gundam suits have Neuron Jammer cancellers. thanks to the actual series not giving a very good understanding of this, i had to look this up several times. A Neuron jammer was used on earth as a means to disable neuron effects on both sides, aka, no nuclear attacks. However the same people who made it, the coordinators, decide to make their best Gundam models with cancellers, that allow the Gundams not to be charged by battery power, but, you guessed it, nuclear energy. The earth, and namely mr Azreal of blue cosmos who advocated a nuclear war from the start, sends this information to headquarters and begins the nuclear war with ZAFT.

Still with me?

Flay here aboard this earth ship, along with a former Captian of their older ship that her companions were on, were forced to comply with this nuclear attack against zaft. But zaft made Gundams with these cancellers. Did you think they wouldn't have something else in mind for this power? Of course. This thing called genesis. And its so powerful, it could start spouting LOVELESS and no one could stop it. No my friends it was this giant machine, capable of using the nuclear power and converging it off a mirror and centralized into one all powerful beam. How powerful? Eradicate the world powerful. Unknowingly, Flay did something stupid. Again. But this wasn't her fault this time. So our peace people fight and stop the natural humans nukes, but are not so powerful when they stand next to that all powerful beam. Blue cosmos Azreal, about as crazy as any man can be, goes on a rampage attempting to destroy everything even though they know they've lost. He turns a gun on the captian, stating that her questioning his every move was becoming annoying and she should shut up so that he can make sure every single coordinator is dead. This, finally triggers to flay what she needed to realize all along. She really did like Kira, a coordinator, who was just like her in every way despite some enhancements in some fields. That if this man did what he did, Kira would be dead (oops skipped a part, when she was a released captive she learned he was alive.). and she tries to warn the enemy ships of Azreals nasty nuke evil—er I cant describe it. Shit happens, the captian ends up taking the ship down with her and azreal and flay and the other crewmen were told to abandon their ship and allegiance to earth and quickly join the peace/neutral ships. Kira, fighting la Cruset due to knowing what he'd done, goes seed mode and fights and fights. But he's not paying attention (…hes got to stop this.) and realizes that the ship flay was on had made it out A-ok. Then la Cruset decides to shoot that ship. Kira saves it. but once again he cannot always protect everything he wants, and the second shot catches him off guard. And flay. Dies.

Now I really didn't want this to happen, death is not a pretty site In anything. No. but heres what goes down. Kira breaks down…like usual, and has that MIRACULOUS MOMENT I was talking about. Yknow the one where we could all pretend we're not in our cockpit of our Gundam and we're really talking to flay. And somehow all dying people are naked? Yeah that's GREAT. She apologizes like she wanted to all along, and he claims it to be his fault for not protecting her. For once in the whole godamn show, I'm happy. Happy she came to a decision that allowed her to think about the ones she cared for, not for their affiliations, or their mistakes they couldn't fix. That she would protect him in the only way she could. Yes. Heart. Duh. Shes dead. Im smiling as I write this right now. And its funny. The first half I wanted her dead….metaphorically, and now its like she's dead and I'm not happy :\ Because even though Kira ends up with Lacus in the end, Kira did like flay, and she did as well. And sadly that was the only real apparent pair. How did that happen.

Safe to say Kira kills la Cruset, Cagalli and Athrun use Athruns Gundam to self destruct inside this genesis weapon, and the two alliances make their pact. Overall, its now easy to see that the most interesting parts of the character side happened within the first 25 episodes, where all that development went to crap and decided to cop out. I dunno. Maybe its because the opening and endings made it so easy for you to think things would happen more? They would change some of the opening in accordance to things going on, so you'd think the times they showed AthrunXCagalli and LacusXKira in the Ops and Eds you'd think we'd GET to see some of that. Jeesus cagallis in her dress stuff twice in the series and like every opening she was wearing it I'm like where the hell does this come in Athrun doesn't even see her in that dress.

Damn them misleading openings.

This took me an hour and a half to write. Wtf.

edit: I messed Cagallis last name up. its atha not altha. but im not gonna go and fix it.

AAAUUGHHHHH ARRRRHHHHHH AHHHHHHHH UGHHH UGHH UGHHH

And that's a sample of what my aim statuses have looked like at late hours of the night. Or most hours o___o

(flashback) BACK IN THE DAY. 2004 or 05 believe, I would spend a good portion of my Saturday playing in soccer games. At night, I would be granted the luxury of watching anime, fma, inuyasha, rave master, zatch bell, the works. But ONLY ONE brings up true bad memories. I would spend most Sunday morning at church just THINKING about my anger/hatred/love for this show. Now, I've decided to try watching this one again, in hopes that I was naïve and let myself get ahead..of myself. This would be the show Gundam Seed.

The original reason I remember for stopping watching gundam seed seems silly but at the same time I guess I was mortified. 'OMG THE BROTHERS BEEN DATING HIS TWIN SISTER!?LDGFLKJFS;GRDFJD;LKJF;L;L *turns off*' at a later age, I realize star wars did this. >.> why I got so worked up is beyond me. But after watching the first 20 eps over, I realized why I think I was so mad. I don't think ive ever been mad at a fictional character before. Her name? FLAY ALLISTER. This red haired BITCH (no not Karin ian XD ) goes insane after her father gets killed and believes that kira, the main character, didn't try his best in the gundam to protect her fathers ship. So she proceeds to TORTURE him mentally, telling him its all ok because he will ALWAYS protect the ship (and later using his slight infatuation for her and manipulating it so that she would fuck up his social ring of friends; as she was already engaged to another one of kiras friends sai) and (I quote from her thoughts) "your gonna fight and fight and fight until you die.) He ends up being extremely guilty, thinks only he can protect the ship theyre on, and eventually becomes more violent as a gundam pilot (when before he was like OMG I CANT KILL SUM1ONEE).

That arc later leads to the cagalli arc, his sister, he ends up like being good "friends" with and has less of an infatuation with flay. But I still don't know why I stopped watching it >.> it just doesn't really seem to justify why, normally I try to watch things all the way to the end, believe me, when they moved .hack/// legend of the twilight bracelet to the damn 5:30 AM slot….luke and I were up @ 5:30 every Sunday morning….

ANYWAY!

Secondarily, in terms of stuff ive been doing OTHER than gundam seed XD here they are!

Drawing? I've started a series called Pea Pod.http://xetak6.deviantart.com/art/At-the-Grass-Pillars-127487475

Gaming?

NO NOT HIM XDD god google, I was looking up FF7 NOT JUST ZACK!

Yes im playing FF7…well I have for one day we'll see if It continues, really gundam has my attention tho.

And I'd like to say NEXT WEEK IS MY BIIIRRRTHHHHDDAAAAAAYYYYYYY XD. Mom thought it was funny because I came up to her and im like "can I have a luke moment?" "be annoying as hell?" "XD that's his whole personality mom but yes. Psst. My b-days next weeeek" "lol ok. " ALL I WANT IS LOVE OOO: just kidding you don't bring a present you don't come XDD JKKjgflkjlkgdf

Malymar pretty much already has given me good gifts (ff7 bumping off her account and a skymin~) and all ashly has to do is like just sit there while I play rock band and whine about the plastic wooden guitar bein in her face and im happy XDD geh 17!? Remember when I was giddy about being 14? And 15? And 16? XD im giddy every year. Cept…for 14 I got a tablet…16 I got a tablet… theres a pattern here im NOT GETTING CRAP THIS YEAR DDD: XD anyways. Btw this has got to be the most posts ive ever had in one month. Three?! XD

See yas~

This a misprint?

Hwah? Wat the hell is this TWO POSTS BACK TO BACK!!?@>ERTG

Yes my friends, my poor blog doesn't see enough [door to] light in its [nobody-esque] life. So I will begin by saying I went to college today. Yay. Now that's over with, its time for

~~~~~~KATES PHILOSPHY TIME~~~~~ !!!

I love thinking. But more likely than not, I only think to myself. So when I get a good topic in my head, I'd love to share it. Talk it, blog it, something it. And here I are. This might be frequent as I think a lot and I ask quite interesting questions to myself so lets IKUZE!

Todays Question: Do you believe that we all have some sort of talent, and furthermore, is it or isn't it wasted due to the surroundings one is put other.

Don't understand? Here's my example. A young boy wants to be a singer but his parents will have nothing less than a business major. In turn, he of course becomes the business major his parents wanted him to become, he would never let them down, and more importantly he's quite good at it. But the real question is, was he supposed to be the singer he always wanted to be? A very big example I just thought of, is the obvious Kerr way, a talented school in which parents of many Asians say you have "no say in what you do you be pharmacist. Hey? You making fun of us? Why of course I am. All in good humor though. Either way, something like a theatre "talent" or art "talent" is all but wasted.

But you have to ask, what would have happened If the tides had turned a bit? What if you were given the freedom to do your talent, your parents say go! Off to (insert the name of the college troy from high school musical 3 here) Julliard with you! And so you go….. But on the way you meet new "friends." They've got meth, and even though your parents say its bad, you say well I haven't tried that before. And then, you might not be the prized major and talent you dreamed and wished you'd become. Could this happen with everything you do? Most certainly. So its to ask the question, did god (or whomever) put people on this earth to fail?

Does every single person have a talent or something that makes them stand out, but sometimes it gets lost in translation? Or were people destined for the "talent" of being a loser. No offence to losers. :\ I MEAN PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T GET THEIR DREAMS TO COME TRUE.

I think that we do all have a god-given talent. But, like the contents of a book, the most important life changing aspects never come first, or even in the middle. WE might have talent (immaturely) when we're younger, but its whether or not we harness is that its true talent. That's why, for me at least, I try to take pride in everything I draw, draw all the time and harness what I want to do. That I spend time watching a video game market, the ever changing market and what will hit when I'm in that market. Not exactly talent per say? Hobbies, talents, either way, I love to read debates, study the aspects of the three new motion controllers set into hah, motion by this gaming era and analyze how they can be used to keep original gamers at bay.

But. I am told many times that I might have speaking talent. In the way I rant I can keep those entertain AND entertain my points. But, I haven't done theatre, and haven't done speech and debate. So am I wasting the talent? Maybe. But we cant be great at everything, so. Another question might be, if you believe someone or yourself has more than one talent, how do you pick which to follow upon? If I had done speech and debate rather than attend art classes, would that make me a lesser artist? Looking back, I've learned nothing in art class but how to waste time. I learn things photoshopwise by myself and teach others. So no, I think I might've still been able to take on two (and my mom says if I wanted to I could do speech in college, prolly not though.) But which would I pick? That, I'll never know. Because I'm no longer on that path, I will NEVER know what it feels like to have been in kerr speech and debate. Oh well. Instead I'm the best marker artist I know, and I can make people happy by helping them achieve their goals in using photoshop. And for me, talent mixed with happiness leads to true perfection.

But back on target. I WANT TO HEAR FROM YOU. YOU my freaken readers all 5 of you or so! Hit comment! You don't have to have a stupid sign in name, just type in "AKARISAMAAA" and then lemme hear what you have to say. I'll restate them once again. Do you believe that we all have some sort of talent that might be wasted due to our surroundings? AND, If you believe someone or yourself has more than one talent, how do you pick which to follow upon? AND LASTLY because I am not like a lot of you, if you aren't given the chance to harness the talents you want to due to parents, how or what will might or might not do to get around them and achieve your goals.

SANKYUU

~Kayton.

Guys! A new post! homgwtfbbqnarusakuhugO:

YES! I NEW POST. I new post lol.

WELL MAL INSPIRES ME TO WRITE MORE, so I shall write in more bursted mode (bwaaaaaaaa I made a digimon reference). Lets start with the social aspect of life first shall we?

Tomorrow is my first day of college. Am I sort of afraid? Yes, not gonna lie. But I'll perservere knowing I got mah good friends on my side and pretend reading is actually fun. Fun. XD my three days of summer in between were really great though. Friday we had the horrible 3 hour walmart run that lead to getting essentials for my summer life. Now all I need is a calendar so I can do the stuff I want on normal days. Then Stevie ding-donged and we played in the slip and slide until Luke and his big…self, broke it (btw ashly, Luke goes to the icing too. XDDDDDD ) We also had our halfy hour 74 cent large Icees from StopNgo :D which…hasn't been called stopngo in like 3 years? And we still call it that (Valero is a silly name anyhow).

Saturday was a, eventful uneventful day. In between Thursday and Sunday I did many art wise things. I worked a bit more on filling out my requests, and got my Taks scores back! So we made a trip to Michaels to get myself some new markers (YOU CERULEAN DRIED OUT PIECE OF *** MARKER YOU ) and getting blizzards. We also took a trip to bwhaha Best buy for the damn store not to give me ACC for 20 bucks like I want T__T

All is ok though. I worked on A politoed picture for my neighbor, making a shirt for her! I ended up coloring one of ashlys lined works a. because I wanted to and b. because its so much fun to see her face (literally and not literally) when her work gets colors~ I also helped malymar make a banner, in which shes paying me for O:

Sunday Luke, Stevie, Sandy his grandmother and I went to see UP, and boy did the theatre cry XD good cry tho. Then I got my LAYERS haircut where the guy with fake cornrows attempted to try to "fancify" my hair and my mom goes... "You know that'll last about 5 seconds right?" XD I picked up 2 stitches from the Disney store, one for me and one for Stevie, and got myself a KH shirt from hot topic. Now all we have to do is just hope that there aren't too many people who like KH at HT so my shirt can be sort of unique….thats not happening T____T and here I sit.

In terms of manga WOWZERS its been a good one. 450—keee naruto…sakura…/nothinata/ yes. I have yet to read bakuman, and a lot of one piece was talk. So apparently naruto made up the whole week for me.

NOW FOR GAMES O: (straight from my blog)

-360 of interest:
-HALO: Reach
-MGS: rising (compilation of metal gear solids) as well as METAL GEAR...raiden.
-SPLINTER CELL CONVICTION O:
-and project Natal. xboxes camera system of FULL BODY motion and VOICE recognition. and... milo D:||||  no controllers required at all.

Nintendo of Interest:
NEW SUPER MARIO BROS (for wii) UP TO 4 PLAYER CO-OP
Super Mario Galaxy 2
Metroid OTHER M, an action/shooter game from team ninja (Made ninja gaiden)
GOLDEN SUN DS
Mario and Luigi RPG 3: Bowsers inside story

Sony of Interest:
-New PSP game called MGS: peace walker (as well as the rising game from the 360 section)
-FINAL. FANTASY. 14. ONLINE I WAS KIDDING YESTERDAY GUYS but apparently IM NOT.DDD:
-FF13 footage : D
-Pretty cool motion control. i liked how it was geared more toward gaming and not "lets play on the 360 menus!"
-Trico, or THE LAST GUARDIAN. updated trailer, the birdthing is more defined. the boy is not -.-

Other interesting things included the announcement of Left4Dead 2, which lead to 15,000 people joining in a group on the official valve forums to protest the games existence, due to its lack of game that Left4Dead 1 was. (well in terms of dlc, but imo if you can make dlc a game do it, esp when the first great one doesn't sell well :< ) I mean I HATE dlc, I think its whats ruining our games. Someone says "make dlc!" but they don't want to pay for it, instead they complain why was it costing money ohhhh, take the time of these people but not give them any money realll smart.

I do dislike that idea. DLC. If im gonna make games, my games come without dlc. Rmr when dlc was HIDDEN? And you didn't pay/download something that should already be in the game? Now I bet super Mario bros three back on the snes would have had the last level as dlc or something, or worse, EACH OF THE POWER UPS. Power ups = guns you know. Wouldn't it be great to pay for your fireballs you've gotten in the previous iterations? I love dlc that's on rock band, because the essential game mechanics do not change from game to game, and this way you get the songs you want, a real playlist. Rock band/GH dlc is just not gaming dlc. Just not.

Anyway that's my rant for today. I WOULD HAVE A LOVELY PIECE OF STRANGE WRITING HERE BUT SOME PPL HAVENT EDITED IT D:

~See yas

Professor Kayton

(Insert background music here.)

According to mal its officially CONFESSION MAY!~

So what a better way to start off a new blog with, yes, confessions (more like random facts I haven't stated a million times to you guys)

SO!!! Here I go.

-I LOVE CENTAURS. :D I dunno, this fact randomly occurred to me when I SQUEE WHEN I HEAR OR SEE OR DRAW ONE. That's sort of weird. Even for me.

-I like to feel pretty when I have to. Other times I'm like "eh. Effort = Time and I don't have tiem" so yeah. ><

-DESPITE WHAT MANY BELIEVE, I DO DRAW THINGS OTHER THAN POKEMON. I just don't show you it because then you'd try to compare it to your own works and ideas. (lookin @ you portfolio people), and frankly, my stuff doesn't have a CONCEPT, it has a STORY. Concept is incredibly fail because I always try to put or end up finding my unconscious meaning to my own work. At least with pokemon, youre gonna tell me I drew it well BECAUSE I executed /drew/colored it well. Not weighing what it means when one day, you probably wont know what the artists works meant cuz you wont be able to ask them.

-I don't like change. I know ive said this before. But I have to reiterate it. This is why im so damn hard to deal with when it comes to friendships. Sorry guys. You gotta trick me into changing, because im actually very good at it, I just don't like the idea of it.

-I HATE **** and ****. These people don't exist of course, because I don't really hate anyone, just mildly dislike. And you can sway me pretty easily (unless you harm my friends, or insult what I believe countless times.)

-I own giant boxes of makeup. I just don't use them X\

Once again those are sort of random facts I just don't know what else to do with. Maybe if you read it you might understand some underlying issues I'm about to write here. I've waited quite the while to write another blog, not that I wasn't up to it, but mainly because my emotions affect my writing. But, im giving it a shot to try to help you understand me a little better, as it's a reflection of this year for me.

    I have not had a good year. Of my many years in school, I consider 4^th 6^th, 8^th, and 10^th to be great years. Note how these came in twos. This was my 11^th year, so I guess we could expect this wasn't so hot for me. But more than normal. In 9^th I had issues with others, minorly, but many a time it wasn't them it was my failure to compromise that created issue. This year however, I don't know what to think. Lets start schoolwise. I passed all my classes this year. All my hard classes. The APS. The ones I tried my very best in to show others that I wasn't just a loudmouth dolt who says and does stupid stuff to make others laugh. I THOUGHT, that if I tried hard enough, I would gain their respect. I guess I was wrong. When it seemed I was trying my hardest, the ones who I was trying to impress went the opposite, well, in this way, didn't show to me what I remember them by. I remember and respect VERY many people for their commitment to me as a person and their intelligence level. And it bothers me so when I see people I know and would give anything to help them with try so little, and yet are (as I will understate myself for the sake of this) smarter than i. So, this general ordeal of doing this to prove myself to others ended, and I tried to prove that I was smart to myself. NOW. I may not get As. Or Bs. But let me tell you I knew what I was talking about. Mom would go "why the hell are you making a 70 in apush and you noticed all these politics and crap before me and I'm the one watching it?!" I don't know. The first half of the year was very up and down. I thought I was moving away from one person while growing closer to another. Then the second half, something happened and those people switched. I don't know whether to be grateful that the one who showed me their colors showed me in time for my decision, or saddened that I no longer feel the same way about that person in the second half of the year.

Lets try to keep up with me shall we? My notions of a friendship, I shall quote from an I'm I had with someone. Because this is the closest I've gotten to ACTUALLY writing what I wanted to say. Wonder if the one I knew whom I was writing to figured that what I had typed was something I said out loud to myself so many times I memorized it, well the unyelled version -__- Secondarily, this was during a very very very not good time, I was very snappy to people, and probably still am but not as much. But its quite important.

khff7gamer (6:27:30 PM):i was sick that day, cant remember why, i think i just felt like utter crap and yeah. so i slept all day. and cried all night.

khff7gamer (6:28:22 PM):yes, you see i do have tearducts but normally they're used in silly ways such as watching sad anime moments.

khff7gamer (6:28:38 PM):but no. that i night i started reminescing about 8th grade, something i considered my golden year. i was president of art club, i had alot of friends and i formed the organization, in hopes that things in the past wouldnt be repeated. ive told you this before, but most of my 'best friends' moved away within the two to three years i knew them, or i changed schools only in 8th did i try to create bonds with people whom i could hope that we would be very good friends for as long as we would know each other. in 9th grade, i guess i have to admit i disliked [a person]. i found [this person] pressing a breaking bond against wat i had hoped to build, an order not for my own sake but i wished for others to forge friendships within that too. certain people didnt like [a good friend of mine] and so, i couldnt push [him] as a friend to you guys and he and i went our separate directions, hoping i could find good bonds within my friends in 9th. safe to put it, these last couple weeks, month or two now, even more so, break everything i remember trying to be. I'm not the president of anything, and im not the most popular, thats a given. but i believed that the people i made friends with would stand by me. how naive. ive learned im a very controlling person. but ive also learned that my feelings are hurt quite easily, so easily in fact they get hurt far more than anyone can imagine, due to the very good facades i put on each day.

 

If you didn't read It, essentially I try to be very close to my friends. This was why my main four was created, to two whom I consider best friends here, and two whom I consider best friends far away. Its hard. I cant tell them of the shitty or great test I aced/failed beyond "I did a very good/bad job." Or "I did good enuff on the compass test to get into hcc!!" but, as I'll quote from the movie you've got mail, watched it the other day all the way through, the silly things we talk about, naruto, pokemon, soda, colors, hair, and all the crack we have, nowadays "[their] nothing has meant more to me than any amount of somethings." Because I get out of them what I try to give. They can make me laugh. It can be raining, pouring, ive got 3 projects to do and a quiz tomorrow, and they can get me to laugh so hard just by wrapping my towel in my hair and hold up a bottle of water and come up with "osama ozarka". Its something I try to do with the real people in my life, because for a long time I believed its all I've got.

THE BEST PART OF LIFE, FOR ME, is laughter. For me to see ANYONE laugh at what I say, whether in their mind they go that's funny! Or god shes being so stupid XD I embrace it. Im probably more happy than they are at that point because I knew I was able to make them laugh. Its extremely rewarding to me. And when for a time those I considered close wouldn't laugh, mind even talking or making time (or yknow, adding me to a group -__- ), I lost myself. I became very passive, and angry. This is not the reflection of what's gone on now, I've been able to reforge one bond I thought and began to believe I lost because of something., And the hardest part of all of this is I didn't know the issue.

I complain when I have a problem, but more often than not, others don't voice their issues with me. You think I'm perfect or something? I don't hear "god kate your so bitchy you should stop" or something. Only subtly, did I pick up on that when I debate, I debate hard and this made others angry, which I had no intention to do. And that's a hard thing to fix, because it goes against my sort of overall motto, "I can be wrong about a fact, not an opinion." I tried very hard to be less….difficult, but somehow this only led to the quiet confines of my mind being spoken to. And even when those who weren't as close to me, which I'm lucky to have BECAUSE as I originally didn't expect the empathy from them because I considered them "lesser friends" (in amount of time spent together), told me wise words not to bottle things up, I can't at some point seem to say what I want to say FOR SEVERAL WEEKS to people. Maybe they don't listen. Maybe they don't want to listen. Or, maybe they just don't understand.

I was once told that someone had a better friendship with me than another because of the time spent together. And I acknowledged those words. But in truth, it's the way people adapt to one another that make good friendships. My outer main four sometimes have a better friendship with me because they do not base me (as I do not base them) on a scale with their "real" friends. But more often than not, it's the way we've typed so much that we can see how we'd react to the things we talk about. Spending time, I thought, was a large portion of it. Those whom I take home I've noticed I've become during that time better friends with. Classmates, and those I have the same periods with essentially should have a larger bond with me than people who are not. But under some pretense to I believe that my true main four no matter WHAT OR WHAT NOT classes we have we can share time together. Currently its with 3 out of 4 people I've felt this way. The middle of the year, it was 2 out of 4. Two, very very very far from me. So its not like I could jump in my car and run to their house and play rock band and make it better. Rather, I was trying to figure out who to do that with here, when those whom I believed I could do that with were my own issues.

Sometimes I believe it's my fault, how I ask people to change for me when I don't deserve it. Somewhere in my mind, I assume, I believe that I do deserve it and so I got angry. That the things I do for them are large but I only ask their friendship. Because, like I said, I would take or give a punch to anyone whom screws with my friends. That punch would hurt like SHIT. But I'd know my friends were okay. Like how I (foolheartedly) expect people to I'm me "are you okay?" when I'm sick, because I try to do the same myself.

So essentially I've learned this year, that a friendship is a give and take process. For people to be good friends, they have to assert their feelings to one and ask the hard questions to the other. Both must be willing to change if they believe that their friendship means enough to them to work. For me, I hate losing anyone, so for a long while this year, I would remember certain people as their younger selves, such as 10^th or 8^th grade selves, because it helped me remember who they were. But at the same time, I got to noticing how much they've changed, and how much I have/haven't changed.

I like who I am. Even if im not in 8^th grade glory, I Still have friends. And hopefully, they can understand that I'm not trying to be the way I am to be distasteful to the way they've change, I just AM.

Portfolio artist I am. Whether you peeps like it or not.

I'm gonna go and call myself the best marker artist I know, because I AM the best marker artist I know. I'm gonna even go out on a limb and say I'm the best photoshop COLORER I know. I'm not the best photoshop utilize in our class, mainly because of my morals in cheating (wat the HELL IS A VECTOR DRAW IT YOURSELVES IM SORRY BUT LIKE SERIOUSLY YOU GIVE PHOTOSHOP A BAD NAME D:<), okay real quick in elaborating here, im not against the idea of tracing. I'm against the idea where you took a photo and decided "lets demoralize the work of traditional portrait artists by tracing over colors :D " because I mean seriously, you take a photo, and you DE-Detail it, and call it art. With photoshop imo, you take your work, scan it, trace and line your lines, and then you cram as much detail you can that someone traditionally couldn't. That's my opinion of a real photoshop artist.

This would be an example of me thinking "why didn't you just take the picture?" vector http://troostar.deviantart.com/art/Second-Vector-60693501 original http://ahrum-stock.deviantart.com/art/Insomnia-Insanity-41-50699407 because it seriously is like saying "look I can do photoshop!" Vectoring is to teach you how to do this.

http://sickbynature.deviantart.com/art/tamashii-no-kagami-99548014

THAT is how you use photoshop if you were to make people. Sure there's not like 500000 shades, but you KNOW that's a woman, and looks like a woman, and mother trucker that's a cool picture (check out his work, Alberto is an awesome artist, narusaku or not I watch him for both.)

I cant do people. Or maybe I don't want to do people. I don't know, but either way ive dedicated myself to the idea of figuring out how to cartoon. IF I cant get a video game job, of any sort, im going to change the world of cartooning at the moment in time. The stuff we lived on, created artists like us, doesn't exist at the moment. Theres no dexter, no ppg, not even fosters anymore, which was the largest innovation of animation in our decade, where they used FLASH rather than every frame. Now theres flapjack…and still spongebob…and nothing exists on Disney besides live action (not that im complaining, phenias and ferb got old quick). These Canadian shows, because I believe theyre easier for US to liscense has invaded. While I LOVE 6teen because it was something im nostalgia about in 7^th-8^th grade, I don't like many other CN works because there isn't that flair, that even when your not a good artist, your STILL trying to draw them. So overall, I have to probably make a portfolio not based on my realism, but my cartoonism.

I draw every single day. All day. Only to stop when I'm distracted by other things, and usually its drawing. XD due to this drawing obsession many have noticed my amount of monsters as opposed to characters. Believe me I love my characters. I just…quite..am not very good at designing them to be appealing D: my way of drawing a unique person is to move a sash somewhere else. According to my mom im good at monsters and backgrounds, and I want to go into video games so these should be the ideas I focus on. To show some people that im not entirely, shall we say, a mono-drawer (pokemon hype ftw.), I will show you a small list of ORIGINAL ideas I've created, but haven't figured what to do with them. They're MY ideas. Not anyone elses, and im putting them up here to show you for the sake of showing I have concept when its not pokemon. :\

Here they are:

Gaming: Game Over- several 'angels' in the clouds, and gods hand pushes one down to resume the life of the lost man, while real angels go and clean up his mess (think dying in dig dug or pacman and theres this hand that drops your other life in the spot where you died.)

Enter quarter to continue- someone who looks like ryu and is about to smash the other guys face in (your climax) and then the game wants you to pay to get your final hit, so you have to insert another quarter to continue. It goes on the idea of paid-for downloadable content, and how many things that is already in the games disc you have to pay for. Like soul caliber costumes or RE:5 multiplayer ><

Genrecontrols - a controller outfitted with gear for the shooter or fantasy or racing genre used in real life. (think military using a ps3 controller outfitted with yknow, real gun stuff.)

Monster Overture- a traditional classic song in which each note of the song is dependent based upon its level of tone (deep or high) and shows a monster above. e.g. a scary monster for a deep note and a happy monster for a high note. Theres a song that I don't remember the name to, and its like starts off slow and gets faster and such, like someone running from a monster, that's sort of the idea.

Fight for the world: a gaming cabinet where an american (and americas Vgame arcade customs) and a japanese player battle. After Reading arcade mania! I realized how very different our arcadeness is, when someone beats pac-man In America or SF4 it's a feat, in japan according to their super duper players, other people don't crowd around and watch someone play, because winning is a normal part of games. So on one side you've got your American crowd and sodas and food and stuff, and on the other side you've got ONE Japanese guy no older than 30 with a bottle of water maybe.

Non-gaming:

Avoidance: a man trying to keep his eyes closed while a flashlight shines on him straight in the face. Its sposed to symbolize things that would be easier to face *such as the light* rather than try to avoid them (the light) This was actually inspired by a person rather than an idea.

The bread is my body, the wine is my blood: Jesus either laying on a conveyor belt as his body (like his leg) becomes the communion bread, and an iv stuck in his arm where the blood becomes wine. Think about a small child trying to figure out why jesus has so much bread to go around, hes got at least enough to feed their church once a month, he must pump it out in factories or something.

Connecting the dots: many words stuck together with dots and numbers around them saying that:

        "Every piece of literature has a pattern, only when you read ENOUGH." Inspired by, none other than, how to read literature like a professor, the mans analogy of understanding that a piece of literature isn't original is due to it having a pattern that only someone who has done enough reading, or connecting the dots, can automatically see.

 

This is just a little bit.

Anyways. I'd like to thank Malymar, and Akarine, just for being awesome. :] oh and making CONFESSIONS MAY MALYMAR D:< its your faulllt.

THE OFFICIAL CRACK PAIRING Dictionary Brainstorm Post.

Operation gee-el-dee. This dictionary applies to EVERYTHING that Mal and I can think of that we've ever strangely connotated, made up, or just plain used it with more prowess. Can my aim friends think of things? They can be inside jokes (between everyone or just a few as long as the people are stated), or just phrases.

Mal started this already but I can come back to this and change it as we go along.

Guilt sphere: n. a strong influence that grasps your subconscious, forcing random guilt in places people do not want it e.g. While sleeping.

TerraxVen: Pairing. Crack Pairing used to refer to terra and Vens platonic friendship as a means of explaining the connection between sora and roxas, the nobody that bears severe resemblance to Ven.

om nom: verb.Adj. used to describe something good that someone is eating, either hypothetically or literally.

Golden Lemons: n. Dating back to 2007, Golden Lemons is an ongoing icon project whose name orgins have faded with time. One could speculate a misunderstanding of the secondary connotation of lemon (see lemon), while others could explain a random abbreviation of the letters G and L led to this madness.

Cheeto: n. Entity for Ian, first developed in 2006 after reading his original yahoo instant messenger screenname as "cheeto_entity2006" rather than its "Cheeko_entity2006" form. Not to be confused with the food, unless of course Ian is drawn in the puffy red snack as a costume.

Malmart: n. Co-Author Mal's place of work, a play on of Walmart and her name, which in real life she works and comments that she is "never ever going to work there again," after she graduates college.

Sandbag: n. Entity for Christine depicted as the non-player character the sandbag from super smash bros. Brawl. She was deemed the name because she had no desire to be a contender, thus was lazy and would be come the one other characters beat up on. It was later discovered that experience and munny would come out of her if you beat her hard enough, and cause for even more abuse.

gah, geh, ugh, bleh, bah, meh, fricken, guh, feh: adj. words used to describe disgruntled feelings about something, mainly life as a whole. The words are used in an effort to copy the sounds made in real life.

Blarg, Blargians: adj. A henchman sort of bad guy in the video game series Ratchet and Clank, used by Kate in the same ways the entry gah, geh, ugh etc. is used.

Superfriends: n. also called "mah main four," Kates main four friends, Christine, Ian , Ashly, and co-Author Mal. The name "superfriends" comes from an idea that one day the main four would be able to sit at the same table for the very first time in the future, a dream Kate hopes to see happen in her life.

Mom: n. A threat to Kates younger sibling Luke when he is annoying; will say "I'm calling mom!" and depending on whether or not Ashly is on webcam with her, a dissing you-got-burned "ohhhhhhh" will occur from the background.

Oh My~: prep. A state of either sheer surprise, or what Princess Peach likes to say. a lot. So much so that copying her through entire battles of brawl has occurred. If written like this "~ Oh my" it enacts a negative version of the word.

Nintenuendoz: adj meaning either reference to nintendo games/works, or a substitute for innuendo. Also could be referring to fanfics not so, smooth? Moments? XD

Godaime: a form of Godamnit, of which cursing out the fifth hokage is totally acceptable.

Inspiral: to inspire someone in a way that leads to a chain of events. (e.i. Mal brings up a topic that Kate hasn't heard about in a while and decides she needs to fandom over it for a month or two. .__. DIGIMON)

Wh-hi~~: the more sounded out version of the theme song "Why," by Akaya, during portions where *spoilers* Zack dies, the singer accents her 'why' very long and high pitched. (see Zack)

AHH! MY EYEBALL!!!: we use this phrase a lot, but yet to cite its orgins

Mother Chicken: Not to be confused with old man mother chicken, This phrase is sometimes used to replace the more vulgar "mother f***er" phrase.

Old Man Mother Chicken: Entity for friend Hira, orgin yet to be cited

 

That's all I have for now.