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Tuesday, October 26, 2010

THOUGHTS FROM DRIVING IN MY CAR TOO MUCH.

part one :]
see. I could be like an AWESOME writer. if I wanted.

Even my biggest fears, and lies, they're controlled by you.
You who gave me meaning
Took it away.

I don't have much to live for
So I live to think
Of what I had
Of what I have
One year it took to sink
that I cant do
What I did with you
Not so long ago.

I don't regret my decisions
I regret yours

You come in
Swoop down
You don't know me
But you look for me
When i'm searching for you
You didn't want to be close
But
My friend.
You're a lot closer than you think.

You took me apart, reassembled me when i needed it
A different person?
Just well oiled
To know right and wrong
To be back on the path
That life takes me.

So while you live your new life
I'll live my old one.
We'll converge someday.

Your eyes will meet red
Mine green.
And I'll know that in that one moment
Truly
without a doubt
It was me
You were thinking about.

~Kayton

Thursday, October 21, 2010

10 songs or something.

So lately, I don’t know what I should write about.
I mean, I feel I don’t need to talk about my "day" or my own current internal issues so I was like, 'what can I do that’s still part of my blog?' And dah ta! MEME.

Okay so the 31 days of rants didn’t go well ‘cuz I’m inconsistent, but I shall try to keep up with it!
But today, I’m playing my itouch on shuffle, and letting it choose 10 songs ill allow others "insight" of my personal thoughts when I listen to them.
If it’s too angsty, ill skip it, but for the most part, my stream of consciousness, memory and thoughts, kinda rolled into small paragraphs.

1: See you again (rock mafia remix) by Miley Cyrus
First got it with the breakout album, I hadn’t actually heard the regular version until rock band got it as DLC. This is a song I know most words to, and has only one real meaning attached to it.
In 11th grade, this was the song Ian and I associated with Ms. Urban for AP English 3. I got my sights set on you, and I’m ready to aim? Like she was gonna kill you with editing XD And see you again? IN AP4 xD that didn’t happen o course but at the time, it was played in my car with the idea of urban singing this. Amazing.
One of my fav lyrics in it:
"The last time I freaked out, I just kept lookin’ down, I st-st-stuttered when you asked me what I’m thinkin bout"

2: (not really)
Gotta go my own way by Gabriella Montez (HSM 2)
....my only thought is why the hell is this even in my itouch? Never really liked Gabriella. SKIPPING THIS ITS NOT A REAL NUMBER

2: Good gone girl by Mika
The VERY first thing that popped into my head when it turned on was ff13. XD I played Mika's album and Miley Cyrus's album alongside 13 for FAR more fun. lolol. I don’t have much more to say about this song, I freaken love Mika’s voice. Oh and good gone girl is kind of a confusing title. lol.
Fav lyrics:
"she’s walkin around, all over town, needs somebody to notice but the goodness gets her down
She’s happy to choose, somebody to use, good gone girl she’s got nothin left to lose"

3: ANSWER BY FLOW
Well, itouch, you really do know me :D answer is one of my FAVORITE. favorite. favorite songs. it was one of the only songs I ever learned fully in Japanese JUST so I could sing it to ford when he was a baby. This is the song that really cemented FLOW in my mind, the emotion, that even though I dont know Japanese, I can feel this strength (well its pain but) in the words. I looked up the english lyrics once, and even though in Japanese, I can JAM to it, knowing that the emotion coming from Keigo is this pain. the videos kind of cool too. I’ve tagged this to narusaku several times, in terms of english translated lyrics. Betty and I would jam to this too. :]
Fav lyrics: (that I spent too much time trying to decipher)
"focus on a naked blaze"

4: Thank you!!! by HOME MADE KAZOKU
and the itouch gets stupid again. It’s played this song like 4-5 times in the last two days that I’ve hit shuffle. ANYWAYS. this was a Bleach ending, and I associate my small
fond memories of like the first 1-30 episodes I saw of bleach to this song. this and Houki Boshi. Personally, it’s not my favorite HMK song, cuz Shounen Heart keeps a similar beat
...but is SO much better. this is too lax for me.
Fav lyrics: actually I don’t really have any.

5: LOL WHAT. okay fine. BET ON IT. by TROY. (HSM2)
why is my itouch so stupid! I DO like this one though. I liked his whole frolicking through the golf course/beach/forest thing and made troy look utterly silly. But when I’m NOT
Watching the movie, I like the background drums, and, his singing actually. ALOT of people I know dislike this song for the reasons I do like it.
Fav lyrics:
"I’m not, gonna stop, not gonna stop till I get my shot. That’s who I am, that is my plan, we'll end up on top again bet on it bet on it BET ON IT you can BET ON ME"

6: the rain rain rain (came down down down) by POOH BEAR
Don’t you love the diversity of my itouch? Its freaken pooh. The whole raining scene where there was the flood and pooh was collecting hunny pots and just HAPPENED to find piglet. And they threw a party for pooh. Amazing. Again, it’s freaken pooh. What movie can you watch over and over and over? AND YOURE FIFTEEN. XD

7: his world by Crush40
His world. It’s a sonic song. There’s been about 4-5 variations of this song, this versions in my upper 1s 2s. Crush40 just has alot of like maturity in this song, which works. anyways. his world is from sonic 06, which I did not nor have any interest to play (sonicXhuman girl? PLZNOTHX) This song, not this version, was my anthem to running outside with the heart monitor during PE of 11th grade. I would sprint as hard as I could when it played. why? because its sonic speed :] the song also vaguely reminds me of power rangers a bit. the guitar bits I mean. anyways.
fav lyrics:
"its the fire, flame, conflicting pain, untouched and crushed and will remain, the one the two the three the four, heading straight for an open door, he can see, and he
can feel with that one touch, it seems unreal but it's true. the power is INSIIDE OF YOUU YEAAHH"

8: heheh. BAD ROMANCE by lady gaga
yay. the actual song that got me into gaga. before this song, I knew who she was but wasn’t well versed in her songs enough to care. now? well now loll. I freaken love this on rock band. and the crazy lyrics. and yelling I WANT YO BAD ROMANCEEEE all the time. and the whohooahaoha and .... this wasn’t much of a memory other than a small fangasm right? XD
Lyrics yo:
RAH RAH RAH AH AH ROMA ROMAMA GA GA OOH LALA, want your bad romance.

9: Human by the killers
so I picked this up on my itouch cuz I was dling killers stuff anyway. I do like it though. my mom and I had a conversation about the meaning of this song, and I just thought it was being illogical about if we're humans or dancers. I’ve read elsewhere those meanings are metaphors for other stuff, but I’ll keep thinking about it. this is one of those songs I zone out while driving in the car.
Lyricss:
"will your sister be allright? when you dream of home tonight, there is no message we're receiving, let me know if your hearts still beating"

And 10: Niji by Denki Groove
Figures. it’s an anime song in the very end. Eureka 7s ending (ENDING theme, ala episode 51 or 2 or whatever). Because it’s a duet, it reminds me alot of Tsubasa chronicles,
because syaoran (Miyu irino) and sakura (yui makino) because there’s a duet in the OST for TRC as well. anyways. If you know anything about eureka 7, and you don’t, it centers
around a boy who matures throughout the series and ends up in the end with the like alien girl. ...it is better than I’m making it. XD so in it, I really like the duet because it
directly connects me to the end of the series, it’s like a musical bridge. you know what you see at the end of E7? space man. and that huge earth.
Lyrics: too tired to look up my fav part of this song in romaji. oh well~

Yeah. These were shitty songs. HOPE IF I DO THIS NEXT TIME I GET MORE MEANINGFUL SONGS RIGHT?
Lol.
~Kayton